Hear my cry oh Lord

Hello,

I have been blessed so much lately it has been awesome. Although many people wouldn't consider a lung cancer diagnosis and a divorce a blessing. I am learning not to look at those two "tornados" if you will "the storm" instead to keep my eye on Jesus. God is bringing me closer and closer everyday. It is amazing and I love what it is doing for my kids as well. I so appreciate everyone's prayer.
I have a need and I am going to post all the information Monday, but I am asking everyone to be in prayer about it in the meantime. My medical expenses and legal fees have been astrnomical and when praying to God about what to do I feel like I was lead to open an account used solely for those two things. I was in the middle of doing that when God said don't forget to spread the word. There are people who can donate to your fund. If you don't ask you rob other people of an opportunity to help. So, I am going to send out a blog and notes or letters to the family if you will and let them know what I am doing and I am believing that God will meet all these needs (especially the medical stuff) and I can not have that additional stress in my life.
As I walk through my life right now please know that God is with me and walking every step of it with me. I know things look and sound grim to some, but I see it as an opportunity for real growth to continue. Pray Jesus.
Michelle

life

Hello,
It is very late Saturday night here, but I knew tomorrow would be busy and so I wanted to blog a quick note. I bet you all think I am the biggest prayer request beggar every known to man. :) Tomorrow morning I take my daughter to get her permanent driver's liscense please keep favor over her as she goes. She has come a long way, but parallel parking is a cannot. At least she tries and maybe her great smile will carry her through yet again.
I got the great news from the courts so this is my first week, not to have to think about what is happening marriage wise. However, I am going to post later about possible donations or ideas on how to raise money to pay my bills both medical and legal. If you have any ideas let me know and I will send my email your way. I am opening an account in the morning for people to donate for anyone who is interested. Every dollar helps. I know this is all so expensive, but I also know it is worth the fight to keep my kids in their home.
I conquered a huge task this week. I had some free card coupons I wasn't able to use, because card shopping is very intense for me they have to be perfect. Anyway, I finally went to Hallmark and used them. I bought cards. Well, I picked some anyway. It was something I used to do all the time, but had too many marriage reminders so I had been holding back. It was just one more area God freed me for this interim time.
Continue to pray Kevin has God's will in his life and I know he has to hit rock bottom so let it happen fast because I hate the way things are for him and us. I pray his parents get out of the picture and quit helping him so he can reach for the Lord only. Pray healing on our relationship whatever that is I definitely want God's will not mine. Everytime I get mine I feel like I am a baby Christian learning all over again what I failed to learn the first time.
It is becoming spring and I am moving from my spiritual winter into a new beginning spiritual springtime. Thank you God for carrying me through all this stuff. Help me to focus on you and thank you in advance for the financial blessings I have already gotten and for the attorney and medical fees that soon will be done.
Blessings,
Michelle

Results

Well, we went to court and it took twice to get his attorney to show up. However, he did and he did it with a vengence. He tore me up on the stand, but through the strength of the Lord I was able to stay composed until I got in the car with my mother. The biggest thing is he tried to make tithing seem unreasonable as a way to spend my money. He brought up the November event that occurred in my life. He was ruthless, I now know why it is that many victims choose not to press charges it is too hard on them. Still, God carried me through.

As I went home the night of court (the judge hadn't made his decisions yet) I felt restless and I decided to fast. Not of food but of sleep and I told the Lord even though I worked the next day I knew if I spent the night in the word he would be faithful and help me through it all. I went to work and surely enough the judge made his temporary order and I came out quite a bit better off then I even asked for, however, now the attorney wants his fees to date. Amere 4,000.00 and I have nothing because support doesn't really start until April 1st. Not to mention there were a lot of bills Kevin didn't pay that are late and they want more money etc. I still know that I can't worry about this money and God has given me a few ideas on how to raise it, but I am waiting on his timing. For now I can relax with where we are in Divorce court, but please know I am holding steadfast to the words God has given me as the kids and I continue through life where we are at the moment.

Thank you all for your prayers and maybe now that things have slowed down for the moment just maybe I can blog a little more faithfully.

Michelle

one day in his courts

I went to court today and my husbands attorney finally showed up. He twisted everything that came from my mouth and tried to upset me bringing up the event that took place in November. The judge gave us a talk about how neither of us will be able to continue to live in the manner to which we are accustomed. I was attacked because I tithe and that isn't an "expense" and several other things. I won't know anything for a day or two, but please pray the Lord's favor over me and the kids because this was a horrible day and I know the glory comes after the attack. I pray whatever happens I can remember what we think it should look like doesn't mean it will and God is my provider not Kevin.
Michelle